Current Song

Youth of the Nation by P.O.D


It's been a  while since I bothered updating. I;ve actually been busy enough to not be bale to make an entry. Getting the ball rolling on moving away form my old college and starting anew with one that may be closer. trying to get as much stuff done as possible as far as that's concerned. While waiting for my appointment with my academic advisior I started talking to this nice girl who sat next to me. She was also awaiting to speak with an advisor but for more 'seriuos" matters, anywho she was really nice. Left me wondering how things might've been different for me in years past, man why can't all people be as nice as she was and easy to talk to. Looking back at it now, it all started with her sneezing, it had be the weirdest "ice-breaker" ever, for me at least. Really feeling tired right now, gotta get me some nice REM cycles... snore...

Song of the Day

Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park

     I've been busy and haven't been able to post lately. The trip to see dodgeball was a lot of fun. I had already written an entry about it but it got deleted somehow. I really didn't feel like typing it all over again, so I didn't. bother trying to.
     I went to one of Phil's parties last week on Thursday, I think it was, and had a great time there. His new house has a pool table, bumer pool table, and an air hockey table. It's much bigger than the previous one, though that one was still big. I played air hockey against Mark and was soundly defeated by him twice. Same result when I played against Alejandro. Even though I lost, I really enjoyed playing against them both. Phillip's mom had hot dogs, chips, and soda for us to eat. 
     Mark brought along his extensively modded Xbox with him. The Mark V Xbox sports a 120 GB HDD, x-something mod chip, mutlimedia player, emulators, and numerous pre-loaded games. NO LOADING TIMES!!!! Haha. Mark offered to mod anyone else's Xbox if they so desired. Makes we want to go out and buy one. After we played Mario Kart 64 on Mark's Xbox we were invited by Phil to go out and play some volleyball. I think four people were out playing with Phil. I declined at first, when I went out they weren't really playing and it disbanded somewhat quickly.
     Phil wanted everyone to jump in the pool. Not everyone had a bathing suit in hand though. His fajah offered someone that they had but not before poking fun at Merrick. Well th rest of the night was fun with swimming in the pool and a pool hockey match aghainst Merrick. I won. Yay me! After swimming we were all invited to go outside and join in the fun asscociated with the bonfire. Well that's all I can write about that for now.

Song of the Day

Song of the Day

Staring at the Sun by The Offspring

    
     Was planning on writing a long entry. However I feel so drained, unmotivated, and depressed. Why does being home always end up doing this to me? It's never quite as bad if I can manage to get away, hang out, and talk to friends. I really wish I didn't live so far away from civilization and my friends were closer. If I had the money I'd fix this car up and leave whenever I could but alas life is not fair t all of us. Someone has be the pincushion while others enjoy...

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The Kids Aren't Alright by The Offspring

 

     New? My fajah is leaving us soon for the almost annual pilgrimage my people make to our homeland. This time of the year always seems to be a mixed bag. Without him, present our family dynamic changes dramatically, kind of like Russia after the collapse of communism. Maybe that comparison is too dramatic, meh I like my analogy.

     Went with my parents shopping yesterday, for all of the stuff my dad needs on his trip. Usually we buy things for family members, gifts and such. Of course, this would not be my family if we do not do this stuff at the last minute. It runs in our family and so there is my excuse, it is genetic!

     I finally started moving in my room. I have huge bed, well at least to me it is, it is a queen-sized bed. Unfortunately, it takes up a substantial amount of real estate in my room. I have bed sheets and a comforter that I really want to use for it but it is for a twin-sized bed. Therefore, I either buy a new bed or try finding the same sheet and comforter set for a queen sized bed. The three bad or not so good things about my new room: (1) One closet door not in working order (2) Cable not hooked up in my room (3) No furniture, except for the TV table. I want at least two tall bookcases for all of my manga and books. That would maximize the use of available space in my room. At least now I can finally put up my wall scrolls, my precious :|In a Gollum like voice|: wall scrolls, my collectibles as well, and maybe slap some posters for added flavor. I wonder how I would fit a computer desk in there...

Song of the Day
Send the Pain Below by Chevelle

     This is the first time I have ever written down, or rather typed for you sticklers out there, any of my thoughts. I chose this place to do it because the people of this site tend to make their blogs a little deeper, meaningful, and longer than the random snippets of thought that appear on LiveJournal. Then again I may still end up having to create myself an LJ account to be able to read some of my friend's post because they made theirs "friends only." So much for an open journal I guess. Oh well it's a matter of privacy. Which is in short supply nowadays. Back to my point this blog consists of serious dives into my psyche, thoughts that are in my mind, things I never speak, and never act on. A better analogy may be an open window to the clockwork of my head but no clock face for you tell the time, ah well I tried.

Song of the Day

Song of the Day
"Downfall" by TRUST Company

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" I " By " Taproot "

   I find it utterly aggravating when other people don't own up to their end in group projects. Time and time again, the last two group projects to be exact. I have had to take it upon myself to pull us through. My group projects have been, thus far, excellent. Let it be known, that I am not by design the leader type, I can't consider myself that type. Nope. No sir. Not for me. Not in my personality profile at all, I think it was the Myers-Squib personality inventory.
  How strange it is that I even did that at all, the leadership thing. Even more so when I became the president of a student club. Life is doing strange things to me. Heck I just may sign up for the Leadership Conference next week. That's all for now world...

   I don't even know how to start. There are so many things I care about. It pains me to see people walking around oblivious to what's really going beneath the surface. There's so much to say and yet I'm always holding back. At times I'm bursting to say things aloud so that everyone can hear what I have to say. I always end up holding myself back. I am always afraid of rejection, ridicule, and prejudice. It sickens me to constantly feel this way. When I am uninhibited by these things I can express my viewpoint, my opinion, my self. When I can feel safe enough to speak or act, I am a different person, I am me.